BROKEN HEARTED GIRL

This song I dedicate it to R

"I'm not the type to get my heart broken
 I'm not the type to get upset and cry
 'Cuz I never leave my heart open
 Never hurts me to say goodbye

 Relationship don't get deep to me
 Never get the whole in love thing
 And someone can say they love me truly
 But at the time it didn't mean a thing

 My mind is gone I'm spinning round
 And deep inside, my tears I'll drown
 I'm losing grip, what's happening?
 I stray from love, this is how I feel

 This time was different
 Felt like I was victim
 And it cut me like a knife
 When you walked out of my life

 Now I'm in this condition
 And I got all this symptoms of a girl with the broken heart
 But no matter what you'll never see me cry

 Did it happen when we first kiss
 Cause it's hurting me to let it go
 Maybe cause we spent so much time
 And I know that it's no more

 I shoulda never let you hold me baby
 Maybe why I'm sad to see us apart
 I didn't give to you on purpose
 Gotta figure out how you stole my heart

 How did I get here with you
 I'll never know
 I never meant to let it go so personal

 After all I tried to do
 Stay away from loving you
 I'M BROKEN HEARTED
 I can't let you know
 And I won't let it show
 YOU WON'T SEE ME CRY"

It was so hard and so sad when someone you really love just walked away from your life. And the most sad is when you've never loved someone else like you love him. This is what I feel right now. I'm not regret. I'm just.... frustrated and sad. I really thought he's THE ONE for me.. But I guess, I was wrong. He promise me to take care of me, to protect me, to love me.. and I was so dumb to believe his lies. I just miss how happy I was with him. Trying to forget him but he's all I think about. Being brokenhearted is like having a broken ribs. On the outside it looks like nothing's wrong, but every breath I take it hurts.